That last post was scheduled. About the time it was posting here I was meeting the little person who'd been growing inside me for the previous nine months.
So suddenly in a new world of baby. It did feel like stepping through a door and leaving behind the old life; things I used to think and do occur to me as though I dreamt them. Now she's here it's like she's always been here, she was always meant to be here, nothing else could have happened.
So, in short:
it's a girl
she weighed 8lb3
and had a lot of hair
ten fingers ten toes big lungs
birth was: objectively - quick, straightforward and very good; subjectively - just horribly painful and distressing
the first few weeks - bleeding, aching, lactating, learning, waking, feeding, marvelling, lots of crying, lots of lovely peaceful moments, everything new and fragile and wonderful, freezer meals, first few forays out, dad at home taking care of me and her and everything
then - days on our own, honing pram skills, healing up, meeting other babies, learning how to do everything one-handed, learning how to relax and trust it'll be okay, cooking, washing, feeding, changing, trashy tv, gaining weight (her), back in the biggest jeans (me)
now - smiles! 8 hour sleeps! finally feeling like emerging from immersion in this real now baby world and blogging a little again...
(PS Although I love reading about other blogger's babies, I feel a little weird about putting my baby out there on the internet for some reason, hence the foot picture. I don't intend to turn this into a baby blog; hopefully as I get back into cooking and crafting and cafés and thinking about things other than baby, I'll have enough else to write about!)