Friday, 4 February 2011

Let go

I wanted to post about this (brown rice and carrots - mmm!) and that (my lost creativity) and the other (can't even remember)

I wanted to get through the unreads on my google reader and comment on the posts I've been enjoying on the iphone but not been able to comment on

The voices in my brain are holding an uninformed debate about childminder vs nursery and this location vs that location vs that location rather incessantly

I am - 6 months early - starting to worry about how it'll be to go back to work

We are not in our usual pattern today - less sleeping, more crying, more feeding, less getting anything done

I didn't load the dishwasher

(I did catch up with two nice mummies)

I have a lot of emails I ought to write

And I meant to make a phone call and I'm not sure I have the energy

I feel like a minger with unwashed hair, ill-fitting clothes and irritable eyes

I have things to send and friends I haven't contacted in an absolute age

I have to let go of all that right now. Sit down, have a cup of tea whilst the child is - mercifully - still asleep, work out what the priorities are again when I have refueled and ready to go. Maybe watch a dodgy mid-afternoon quiz on the tv. Maybe even breathe a little.


  1. You so absolutely deserve to sit and rest and enjoy your cup of tea, you work hard enough! Really hoping that you have a restful night and that you wake up refreshed and feeling like you can tackle anything- including annoying phone calls, which really are the worst to make! X

  2. I have also been thinking about returning to work - and I might not be going back for 11months!! Very normal, and very challenging.

    You are lucky in England to have the option of childminding rather than daycare. Over here everything is too regulated and there are no such things as childminders.

    Hope you enjoyed your cuppa and some trash TV. I know how you felt, my house looks like a trail of destruction has gone through it (namely my toddler) I'm constantly all hot and sticky with the yucky weather which is making me cranky Mummy. Hope you can get a bit of time to yourself on the weekend with B being home xxx

  3. i know exactly what you mean. i'm brimming with plans and things to do lately, it's impossible to get to most of them. we have to let go and allow down time and accept that even accomplishing one little thing each day is enough...anything else is just stress we're putting on ourselves.